Bad Habit

I've been thinking about this for long time that something has changed. When my body needs a break, but my brain refused.

I start worried about my heart, my health. It started a few months ago, when I was that busy, I had to adapted. Began used to my condition, I could only took a rest for a few hours. It was bad, I've never laid my back. I sat down and leaned my back on the wall. At first, my body felt warm, unstable consciousness and exhausted. I did it for almost a month. That was terrible.

The result, I could sleep for more than 3 hours. Max 4 hours if I feel so tired. Well I know this is unhealthy for some people, but since my body was adapted, there is nothing to worry about. This is the result of through that hellish periods. I'm good.

It's 12.05 am, I'll sleep

Enemy

Am I pretending to be strong? Am I still that weak? am I haven't change?

Many things happened I've been through. I can learn something from them. Since I fell into deep abyss, very very dark, but I still can rise up against the sun. I just need some more time.

Suddenly I realized, I still me, I just put away, buried deep and deeper those anxieties and negatives, I didn't banish them. I realized I've changed, but not at all. I still can feel that fears, evil natures. I think its normal since I can control them, and yeah, at least I can survive so far, but can I keep going? Can I be this me further?

This demon seems like wont let me that easily, fuck you, demon. I think you were fell asleep after that time and now you wanna wake up? That way so sudden. why did you born and live inside of me?

But just see, one day I'll overcome you and take over this whole mine, and wont let you have every single of me, you natural born enemy.