Crow

I wanna be a crow!. I said whenever i see the birds and imagining how nice fly in the wide blue sky. Feels like, there are no burden  when they widen and flap their wings, soar high and higher in the sky.
Nevertheless, why do I want to be a crow than any other birds? Dunno, there are no reason, I just like them. Black, charming and mysterious.
Then, I realized from my wishful thought. I realized that I is me, Homo sapiens who trapped inside demonic circle. It's easier to get in, but more difficult to get out. Waste of time and vain efforts, got uncertained things. It's very very unfavorable. I messed up, I just wanna take a break from my business, my brain is beating very hard and feels like gonna explode. Just wanna put it somewhere colder than my head. Someone ever said to me, if it's worthless, why should you continue? That's really a difficult decision, (if could) I just want to leave this demonic circle. But, leaving is not a solution. All I gotta do just face it and stay alive!
Probably, I feel tired. Feels like getting nothing from what I've done. But, it's just my short-terms thought. I survived, still alive, means I'm that good! Hard to believe, it was a long way, so much struggles. But seeing my current self, I'm well good enough than yesterday, than a long time ago.